Alternate Dimension

Something has been bugging me this week.

Slowly, and I mean SLOWLY, I am adapting to this new teaching experience. Bit by bit I am feeling more confident with the technology, with my role in this system, and with the interactions with the students.

Yesterday I was HUGELY resentful. This is a very strong emotion and it didn’t fit the events of the day. So I reflected. Here’s what I discovered.

The team meeting yesterday. The divisional meeting today. The class meeting tomorrow.

These are intruding on the relative peace that I have found in this new routine.

Since March I have looked forward to these meetings because it is a chance for me to see my dear friends from my school family. Now seeing them reminds me of the Way Things Used To Be and it makes the Way Things Are seem more obvious (and somehow threatened). I feel relatively safe in this current environment…in the next two weeks, all of that will change and I am not responding well to this.

I will adapt, of course, because…really…what are the options? I just found it strange that I would feel so protective of this current situation, especially when it was mildly repulsive at the outset…I guess as most things are to they who resist change.

We’ll see how it goes…