Anticipation

Sometimes it is an effort, but today I am choosing to regard tomorrow with Anticipation instead of Consternation.

Anticipation has different faces for me. That feeling right before the pizza arrives to the table…the one where there are only a few hours left until dismissal on the Friday before Thanksgiving…the waiting room outside the surgeon’s office moments before the drains were removed…the line at the venue where Dave Mathews is warming up…the way I know when a storm is coming and I know good sleep is right behind it…the 45 minutes of Autumn that we get in Texas…there is a visceral thing about Anticipation. I can taste it, feel it on my skin and tangled in my hair.

I usually have such an excitement leading up to the start of school. I love shopping for school supplies…for the last twenty years I have bought myself a new box of crayons…something about the smell reminds me of being happy about returning to school. My planner is set up and ready to go…my clothes laid out for the morning…my school bag packed and in its spot for an easy grab tomorrow as I head out into the world.

This year has been harder…there is the Unexpected…the Technology…the empty Barn (my school used to be an actual barn)…a new batch of students…the first time in fifteen years that I haven’t taught the kids before…

I figure I am being called to stretch myself…I will learn the technology…I will get to know these new kids…maybe they need me now, especially.

Tomorrow will come, ready or not…I need to do a better job of Embracing the Chaos…ETC…I feel like a t-shirt design is in there somewhere.