Elephant Dining

I am REAAALLLY struggling to make my brain work today. I have so many things to accomplish and I am flitting around like a fly on poo at a dog park!

On my lengthy list I can scoop off the things around the house, the work in the yard (too dang hot) and garage (ditto)…but I am still left with the mental gymnastics that are causing me the most grief. They sit there like a giant Elephant, daring me to eat it. That is the way of it for me, much of the time. I will allow things to glob together and they seem insurmountable. “There is no WAY I can manage that.” There is, of course, but it takes a quietness of mind (and mine is like one of my son’s Post Hard Core Heavy Metal Rock concerts) and a certain calmness of spirit (I am so excited/terrified about the new year). So, it is very easy to get carried away and want to just throw up my hands (and maybe my lunch) and quit.

So. Daddy told me that the way you eat an elephant is ONE BITE AT A TIME…I have mentioned this elephant before. Today, this minute, I need to work on a couple of things. What needs to be done for tomorrow…my food prep (let’s be real…I’ve already cut out comfort food—NO ONE considers celery comfort food…not even a guinea pig…if I don’t have my limited food prepared for tomorrow, it will get ugly quickly), my rest, and just one or two things for school. THERE IS TIME FOR THE REST. I am not delivering a baby, for Pete’s sake, I am planning for a Zoom call with fifty-seven kids tomorrow…it’s just me introducing myself. I KNOW ALL THE ANSWERS to that one!

The bottom line is that it is OKAY that I don’t know how to use all the gadgets. It is OKAY that I can’t figure out how to get my new laptop to open my OneDrive files…someone will tell me how. It’s OKAY that things are chaotic…I can be my own little hurricane eye.

But here I go again, tucking my napkin into my shirt, taking a deep breath, giving that elephant the eye, and then taking JUST ONE BITE AT A TIME.