Know When to Hold ‘em

As I look back and see the gaps in my entries, my first response is to feel guilty…like I have somehow let the Universe down by not being faithful to my posts. The Universe understands and is possibly ambivalent to me ramblings. In any case the idea came to me today that sometimes you have to put down some of the cards in your hand so you can see more clearly what you have been dealt. These posts are for me to have an outlet. I don’t exactly write for an audience (although in the back of my mind I understand that by posting and putting this out in the ether that there is a de facto audience). Sometimes this is going to the be the card that I put down so I can survive and thrive during the day. It doesn’t mean I love you less, Ether Audience, it just means for that moment I love me more. The very cool thing that I have noticed is that even when I lapse for a few days, I can very easily start right up again…like those friends you have…you know the ones…the ones that when you reunite it is like no time has passed. I need to be a better friend to myself these days. I am working on it…