Balm of Gilead

You know how sometimes you don’t know what you need until it has been given to you? Today was like that. I have been doing my best to keep my chin above the flood line…this doesn’t prevent a frequent dunking, but it’s better than it was the first week of school. Today my email won’t let me reply or create new messages. Since I send messages to a number of large groups it has me tagged as a wielder of Spam. I put in a ticket, of course I did, but it doesn’t change the fact that I am 27 hours without email in a virtual job that rather requires such for communication.

This afternoon we had a Department meeting that combined English and History people.

THAT is what I needed. I listened as best I could to what was discussed…I am still about two-and-a-half weeks behind the power curve to be able to understand it all, but it was good to be reminded that there are kind and patient people in this group who care about me and who are willing to help me get my arms around all of this. It was good to linger after the meeting was over to hear loving words spoken and to commiserate over the struggles. My mom has been a huge support, of course, but to be able to pour out my struggles to people who are in the same boat makes me want to keep bailing.

This is the most amazing group of people and I am feeling soothed and particularly blessed.