Caffeine

WHY must it be better for me to dance without it? I mean, I understand the science, but the psychological pull is strong. I have been completely caffeine-free many times, and no one died at my hand because of it. I didn’t particularly enjoy it, but I wasn’t crazy or anything.

I think my desire must be because I am putting so much pressure on myself to perform to my own self-set high standards…the chemical is my crutch/tool to make it through the fuzzy bits. It makes me think of the stories about movie and music stars who fall into the cycle of uppers to perform, downers to sleep, and then they end up completely addicted to both. Tell me, is Caffeine a gateway drug? It hardly matters since I’m not a rock star (except in the shower). But is it a great Rationale to enjoy a cuppa in the morning with my mom? I know there is decaf, but it just doesn’t feel the same, and I fancy I can tell the difference.

I remember watching a movie…Keanu Reeves was in it…there is a scene where a lesson is imparted…on a sitar…if you tighten the string too much it will snap (did someone say diet?)…if it is too loose, it will not play (Jabba the Hut sluggishness)…moderation is the key to all things, isn’t it…when the strings are just right they play beautiful music.

Maybe just one cup…