Jacob’s Ladder

You know when the clouds have been heavy but the storm is passing, and here and there you can see rays of sunlight shining through? Yeah. Me, too. I am waiting for that thing.

I feel like I am trying to walk gracefully on legs that have fallen asleep. I am very jerky and uncoordinated, and for the moment I am glad that I am not near school…I am certain that I would bring the building down around my ears from sheer clumsiness. Today’s classes are moving forward…my very kind and gentle students are helping me figure out the technology. It is my hope that they won’t think I am a complete moron because I don’t have the Techno gene that everyone born after 2005 seems to have. I guess I’ll have to show them I’m not later…right now? Still crunchy.

I did have what felt like a sunbeam glimmer on me for a minute today…I was able to start planning what the quarter will look like with the strange start. I can do this, I know I can. I just need to breathe and stay hydrated and wait for the sun to break through.

I think I’ll be able to see the sun Laura and Marco, notwithstanding.