Shake it Off

I don’t always agree with the decisions that come down the PIke. I don’t have to agree with them, I just have to implement them. Today I am struggling with a decision that I think is especially unfair. I don’t know all the information behind the scenes or what kind of pressure is being brought to bear upon the decision makers. I only know that I am balking hard at being the one who has to carry out the orders. I am balking so hard that I am momentarily unable to see a way to make this feasible. I am very literally crossing my arms over my chest and holding my breath until my face turns blue.

I will try to turn that breath holding into yoga breathing. I will try to find a way to carry out my orders without breaking spirits, causing anxiety, or outright lying. I will try to shake off the angry, rebellious feelings.

It may take me a minute is all.

This blows.