Trust
Trust yourself, you know more than you think you do.
I have asked my students to trust me. I trust my boss. I trust the people with whom I work every day. I hope that all this trust will work out into something lovely.
I am a trusting person, usually…a little crab-like…it might take me a minute to emerge from my little shell, but once I do, I usually give folks the benefit of the doubt.
I am also thinking about how rattled I was at the beginning of this Pandemic. I do a lot of self-talk…I am clever, I am kind, I can do this…but it doesn’t mean that I don’t have whispers of the opposite…you’re too old to learn new technology…your lack of understanding in this new way of doing things is going to screw up these kids…the future is ruined because of your lack of ____________…
But I know more than I think I do…I have plugged holes in the dike…I have come up with new and different ways to impart the knowledge they need. It has been hard to let go of the things that I have used successfully in the past, but I’ve done it. I need to trust myself more. I need to trust it when my mind gets fuzzy and my body tires…I don’t need to get it all done in a day. What was expected and acceptable in February can’t and shouldn’t be expected now. I need to trust my instincts…when I don’t, it’s a disaster.
I am trusting.
