Waking Up Mad

Does that ever happen to you? Where you get most of the way through your day before you realize that you are mad at the world? Sometimes there is a Thing that happens that irritates me that gets it all started, but not yesterday. Yesterday I got to see my Seniors for the first time since the ACT test…before that it had been February/early March. I was hoping for a joyful reunion, but the truth is most of them looked right through me. It hurt my feelings like you wouldn’t believe. I had to remind myself that for some of these kids, coming out of their homes for senior portraits may have been the first time they’ve been out of the house in MONTHS. Also, avoiding eye contact when they do come out into the world is probably habit now, because there are people out here not wearing masks. Also, I’ve lost a bit of weight, so my profile has changed a little…perhaps they didn’t recognize me. It is right and just that these kids will move on and make their own way in the world…I just was hoping for a little bit of enthusiasm from them.

So. I went home, calling Mom on the way…and I had ice cream…and then chili with Fritos…and I took Luna for a walk. And had a cuppa. And felt better. It isn’t all about me, you know.